so I thought since it was a new year things between me and ray would change and go back to normal but sadly its not and it really sadness me I miss my best friend tremendously and he don’t care that I do I try to talk to him and all he want to say is k then he says if im going to talk to him its pointless I don’t understand whats going on he hurts me so much and I don’t understand why I love someone that treats me like dirt I thought we had a ace 1 relationship and I thought I knew everything there was to know about him but everything that I knew was surely a lie I don’t know the real ray he is 2 faced to the extreme when he is around people he likes to show out and make me feel low but at the same time he likes to be In my instant messenger being nice he always talks about me behind me back and pass whatever I have to say on to others but when I pass what he says to me onto others it’s a big deal I don’t know its 2009 it’s a time for change and I love him and I always will but I don’t know why I continue to stay stressed about it about him maybe because I love him and I don’t tell anyone not even my own family that I love them he means a lot to me and I don’t want to lose him but to basically be replaced by someone that he only knew for a few weeks is horrible and he thinks everything is a joke now is the time to start whinnying myself from him its time to break my best friend relationship I cant take it anymore why should I love someone if they don’t truly love me back